Perhaps I don't have to seek understanding for posting such emo posts. Because, let me tell you, I really am not what i may seem to be. Not the happy-go-lucky jo, not the jovial jo, not the smilely jo. Or at least, It's not who I really am. I don't even know who i really am. I have deep thoughts within, thoughts that I don't tell people, not even close friends. I feel that I'm very much in my own world, and I'm lonely at times. I yearn for someone whom i can convey my thoughts to, to relate my emotions to. I wasn't like this, at least not before that thing happened. I was really simple, naive, stupid, jovial, happy. But for the past year, I've changed in a way that I couldn't quite figure out if i like it or not. I've learnt, but Im not sure if I will be able to refrain from my mistakes again. I feel so tired, so worn out, and old. Im not the simple minded girl I used to be. I think a alot, I'm skeptical, I doubt, I question, and yet, I often don't have the answer.
Identity crisis.