Perhaps I don't have to seek understanding for posting such emo posts. Because, let me tell you, I really am not what i may seem to be. Not the happy-go-lucky jo, not the jovial jo, not the smilely jo. Or at least, It's not who I really am. I don't even know who i really am. I have deep thoughts within, thoughts that I don't tell people, not even close friends. I feel that I'm very much in my own world, and I'm lonely at times. I yearn for someone whom i can convey my thoughts to, to relate my emotions to. I wasn't like this, at least not before that thing happened. I was really simple, naive, stupid, jovial, happy. But for the past year, I've changed in a way that I couldn't quite figure out if i like it or not. I've learnt, but Im not sure if I will be able to refrain from my mistakes again. I feel so tired, so worn out, and old. Im not the simple minded girl I used to be. I think a alot, I'm skeptical, I doubt, I question, and yet, I often don't have the answer.
Identity crisis.
2 comments:
pple change, humans grow. u can onli choose to adapt and the path u are moving /changing, be it right or wrong, i can say its totaly up to how ur mindset goes.
dun coop urself up like this. it will give u headaches, and pain, and depression.
instead, write it down if its things u wanan tel pple but duno how to on phone, in person/ or u simply wanna keep it secret,
maybe dramatic yi dian, tell it to a bottle and throw it away!
how can ur life change more than me darling? hehe
in 2007, i gone hosp almost died 3 times, then met a nice bf, but unfortunately, grandma fell sick,
then pass away, coping with new sch new system new exams, and then uncle pass away too.then i kana cancer. nw parents nt on gd terms oso (thou i dun care)
dramatic enuf ?
so u must JIAN QIANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
someone else in this world, even the small one we live in, will understand.
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