Truthfully, i don't even know my honest answer to your question. I can't differentiate between missing him and missing the mere existence of a company. Im ok, i know. But am i really what i perceive myself to be??? I don't know anymore. Im still more or less the same jo in sch, in everywhere, but when im alone, i tear and cry at the slightest thought. For all i know, he might be living the high life, with another person. I know i shouldnt cry over someone who doesnt stay, who is totally out of my life, who strikes me out of his life. so why am i still crying.........blame the memories. and him.